Tonight...

Ministry isn't always easy, because you're engaging in life with people. And life isn't easy.

Sometimes wounded people wound you, because they think you're in leadership, so, therefore you must be strong. Or maybe they just think you're more likely to forgive.

Sometimes people don't believe in what you're doing - and you have to love them anyway.

Sometimes people don't like you (or your husband lol) and you get to love them anyway.

Sometimes you've given all you have, and so have your kids, and it's still not enough.

Some nights you look into the face of God and say, "Love, I think you picked the wrong girl. I'm not tough enough for this."

And then you have tonights... :)

Tonight I had the privilege of worshiping with people who were singing out to God so loudly I could hear them over the instruments.

Tonight I got to listen to 4 people testify about how Jesus has changed their lives. And I thought about the craigslist ad that had brought the couple who invited the couple who posted another ad that brought in another guy. 3 of them were baptized tonight, and that young man is ravaging the BSU campus for Jesus and loving people like I can't believe.

Tonight I looked around a room at so many people who are giving God another chance because of so many others in that same room who are trying to live in love.

Tonight I witnessed my baby being held by a precious teen girl who feels God is calling her to children's ministry - and I thought, THIS is WHY!

Tonight I observed my two-year-old getting drenched as one of the guys built a snowman in the fresh falling powder - and I thought, THIS is family!

Tonight I watched my six-year-old witnessing others' coming up out of the water - a symbol of new life, a new creation - and I thought, THIS IS WORTH IT!

Tonight I was romanced by the Savior of my soul - a romance I don't deserve, yet he lavishes it on me.

Tomorrow might be painful. Tomorrow may bring struggle. Tomorrow, you may wonder.

But TONIGHT~ 

Tonight is why we're called, and why we step out in faith.

Thanks for tonight, Jesus.

Galatians 6:9-10

Crazy Christmas and a Wacky 2010

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Merry Christmas Friends and Loved Ones,

We decided to forgo the cost of physical Christmas cards this year, especially since we can connect so many of you digitally ;). We hope this finds you well and resting in the peace of Christ. 

The wacky picture? I often wonder why I even expect the family photo to be ideal. LOL. Three - or should I say four - excitable, eccentric boys are tough to corral. It's been a crazy year - as most are in the Taylor household.

Draes turned 2 in June. He is growing SO quickly in wisdom and understanding. He's into everything, loves his family, his brothers, and spider man, and is advancing in vocabulary faster than I can keep up. His favorite phrase as of late is "Gy yus oo" (I love you) - or "Gy yus oo too muts" (so much). It's heart melting and more than compensates for the two-year-old fiascos we've been through. Draes has a generous heart, like his daddy. He never gets anything for himself without asking for one for Dax too, and will VEHEMENTLY INSIST that you take a bite of whatever it is he's enjoying. He is a joy... op, he just came in and said, "Momma, go clen upa mess!" Maybe I was too complimentary. Ha!

Dezdin weathered about a month of illness in September and October. He graduated from an ear infection, to the flu, to pneumonia. Sweet boy. We were beyond grateful for his recovery and healing. He's growing up quickly too. Since having turned 1 in November, he is singing and "conversing" much more, using some sign language (somehow I'm starting everything later with him, poor kid), and terrorizing his brothers. He has even taken a few, timid steps, though I'm in no hurry for him to walk. He's my cuddle bug, and I'm cherishing every moment.

Daxton started Kindergarten this year - which he loves, despite chagrin over missing out on the few hours of family time. He turned 6 last month and is reading and exploring math and science concepts all on his own - along with being a bit of a philosopher. This week, on the way home from school the topic of discussion was what happens to our bodies when we go to heaven, if we have a body in heaven and the eternal existence of God. My brain about combusts trying to understand all that myself, let alone trying to find words to satisfy a six-year-old. He loves the family, and has asked that we "do a family Christmas thing" every night after dinner. It makes Dusty and me happy to know his family is so important to him. He's a great help too - working with his brothers, doing chores and helping out with Connections tasks as often as possible.

Dusty's invincible, as usual. Very little slows him down or catches him off guard. He's our own personal super hero - coaching the Connections team, taking care of all of us, and still finding time to be a family. I seriously don't know how he does it. This year, he and the team wrote, directed, filmed and produced our very own little mini-movie. You can watch it at www.imconnected.org. They had a lot of fun! He's always dreaming up some new, creative way to love on people and share the message of Christ. I suppose my favorite, though, is watching him instill values and Christ-like character into the boys. I'm so thankful for his example to them.

And me? Well, I just try to keep up :) No, seriously! I help where I can, just trying to maintain balance, and relying on God to show us which step to take today. It is never dull, always just a little crazy... a lot like the picture. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Love you each and all. We hope your Christmas is full of the crazy joys of life and that Christ outshines everything else. PLEASE get in touch with us if you are ever near Boise. We would love to see you.

Christ in you, the hope of glory,

Tammi

Daxton's 6th.

Our little man turned 6! It's so crazy, yet with how busy life is with 3 and then the holidays, it just breezed by. Here I am 3 weeks later finally getting pics up.  He had so much fun with a few of his little buddies and his brothers and cousins. The first pic is of Dax as a baby, because it just doesn't seem like 6 years ago! And the rest are kind of self explanatory. If you check out my Facebook page, you can see TONS more pics of the kids. Life is crazy and fun and tough and beautiful and... us - who God made us. We're not a "tame" lot, just a little nuts, but we love it.

Enjoy the pictures.

Dez's 1st birthday pics, enjoy!!

Here are the pics. :) Dax's bday shots to follow...

The pretty lady Dez is with, is our friend Brandi, who made his cake! There are more pics on my FB page too :)

Dez turns one!

There are days that seem to crawl, but mostly, you look back and say, "Already?!"

I put my sunglasses on in the card aisle, trying to mask the tears as I read through the card I would buy for Dez. One he probably won't read until he's a grown man, if then. 

I remember when we found out we were pregnant - unexpected, afraid - knowing we wouldn't be insured, because we were making the move to Idaho and I wasn't going to be dishonest on the application. So many uncertain moments, feeling God whisper in the background, have I ever left you alone?

I never DIDN'T want Dez. Never felt that. I just feared the unknown, the "out of my control." 

And then he arrived. The timing perfect - after church but before our scheduled induction - and fast. And God came through. As He always does - in different ways - not often the ways we expect.

And now that precious, surprise baby is 1! 

Almost over night he seems to have grown up - to KNOW he's older. He doesn't cuddle quite so much as he did. He wriggles out of arms. He converses more and backs down less. He pursues everything with zeal - his daddy, his brothers, me, the cupboard contents, the trash can. 

Grandma said he bested the toilet lid yesterday - might have to get locks - never had that issue.

We're so proud of our sweet boy. So excited about who he is becoming and can't wait to know him more. Hope you enjoy the pics!

(Pics R causing me problems, I'll get them up soon as I figure it out :)

Update...

I KNOW! I KNOW! It's been forever! I need to get back to my blogs.

But alas, laundry and diapers,

Dirty dishes and kitchen floors,

Unmade beds and husband's socks

ALL BECKON ME! LOUDLY!

(not to mention Connections duties)

Relationships? Friends? I think I have some of those...

Let me just... crawl... through... the... mound of... breakfast crumbs...

Ahhhh, there.

Well, I'll have to post pics another time. But here's what's new...

Dax started kindergarten - he's really enjoying it. We miss him, but it's only a couple hours :). He is my ever-drawing, building and inventing man. Everything is his new invention, or a magic trick. He's so much fun! And he loves his family - forever drawing pictures of us all or writing all our names with hearts to show how we all love each other.

Draes... has a new vocabulary every day! His favorite phrases are... 

"MOMMY COME NOW!" 

"Hyuss, NO!" (Hyuss is Dax... not sure how that evolved?) and 

"DAAEEE (daddy - which is either mommy OR daddy), I WANT!"

MY favorite phrases are...

"Mommy, keece" (kiss)

"Mommy, hoc" (hug)

"Iee uh oo" (I love you) AND

"mmmmmaaa" (mmmwaaa)

He's still getting into everything, but he's also GREAT at cleaning up after himself. I'm pretty impressed!

Dez is threatening to be as ambitious as Draes. No walking yet, but we crawl fast and get into anything left accessible to us. Already opening cupboards and drawers... He's a joy. A love. He's still a very happy, easy going guy and greets everyone with a smile. He's got 4 teeth now, which have changed his "look" considerably. He's just fun!

So, there's the info. I'll post pics later :) hopefully not months... later :)

Draes

June 21st was a big day at our house! (Yes, it's taken me a month to get this posted :) Father's Day, Draes's birthday and my birthday (which is conveniently forgotten due to Drae's birthday, therefore I have ceased to age! LOL :)

Considering Drae was 2 months old the first time we visited Boise and wasn't walking when we moved here, it seems like his 2 years have just flown by!

He's ALL boy - climbing everything possible (no longer matters that we removed the bottom rung from the bunkbed ladder, he climbs it anyway) and fashions EVERY toy into a weapon of some sort.

His vocabulary is exploding! Recently, I guess we've eaten hot dogs too frequently because now EVERY entree I make (literally) is called "ot-doc?" "No, honey, it's chicken." "Si, hot-doc!" (No, we haven't taught him Spanish, that's just how he says "yes"). And the other day a car with a dog inside was pulling by and Draes hollered, "Bu-bye, ot doc!" 

He's a lover AND a fighter! Overall, an absolute joy! Enjoy the vid; ignore the annoying narrator :)